Jess

i never know what to say here; i’m young, i’m dumb.

i’m in a weird phase of my life now where i have a month and a little of living in my parents house with the people i know, the people i love.

this last weekend i went to a festival with a few of my friends and to be fair, i had a really sucky time. mostly cause of them? which isn’t right. when i wasn’t with them i loved it. 

i hate it but like, i feel like i’m eliminating people in my head from my good (friend) books. 

i’m like 87% sure i’ll be happier when i go away. just cause i’ll be unattached from the drama that churns up our emotional stability here and i’ll be more free to ignore it. 

i don’t know why i’m writing this here cause i never use it but it’s just something i’m thinking about. 

over and out. i don’t think anyone will listen.

i have little footprint henna tattoos on my wrist now. 3 footprints and they have little toes and everything. one of them has 6 toes. i really want to march out of here. i guess i’ll be able to soon, sir. it doesn’t really seem close at all but it’s like a few months away:|.

i need to keep up with blogging; it’s been a wee while.

“i’ve met god across his long walnut desk with his diplomas hanging on the wall behind him, and god asks me, ‘why?’ why did i cause so much pain? didn’t i realize that each of us is a sacred, unique snowflake of special unique specialness? can’t i see how we’re all manifestations of love? i look at god behind his desk, taking notes on a pad, but god’s got this all wrong. we are not special. we are not crap or trash, either. we just are. we just are, and what happens just happens. and god says, ‘no, that’s not right.’ yeah. well. whatever. you can’t teach god anything.”

-CHUCK PALAHNIUK

i’m jess. i live amongst vast landscapes of hills and mountains and lakes and forests but i realised today that i haven’t climbed a mountain in ages. like a year or something stupid. i should climb a mountain soon. yesterday i walked in a wood but becuase it was so dark i had to leave.

i should learn not to walk the dog so late.

today i like - hot orange, doing things that aren’t stupid (that was a rarity today), tai chi, agyness deyn and the colour black.

but that’s just today.

when i grow up i want to be a photographer in new york or be travelling through asia or something. you know.

i ate too much pasta today.